Posted by:
spwdone
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Date: June 23, 2013 09:59PM
Honestly, I don't really care if this post was fake, I'd rather take the chance. I don't think it is though, because I've felt the same way at times, even though I know TSCC org is a totally false, destructive and damaging organization.
When you're down, you go for what's known. I know it, it's recognizable, the conditions for acceptance are obvious and easily done (or faked) and as long as you give up who you are and are willing to submit to their conditions, the acceptance and love are absolute. Yep, that's the catch, right there.
Who you really are, doesn't matter. Those so called friends, aren't really, they don't really want to know you or care who you are. Only as long as you fit into their little box. Please remember that. The initial "love in," well, it's like a drug, wonderful initially, then the reality sets in and you start to realize the promised joy isn't really there and you're being sucked into a dark, dark hole and you don't know who you are anymore.
Resist, please. Only more pain, horror, self-loathing based on false premises and the need to find yourself all over again lie down the path of returning to TSCC. Don't do it to yourself, you deserve better.
If you need a church, find an Episcopalian congregation somewhere near; I believe there are non-denominational and Unitarian churches that are similar. They are totally accepting and loving of everyone who shows up, by doctrine and in my experience. Initially I stopped by chance and returned a few times when feeling the need for such support and acceptance, although I have realized that I'm really not a church organization person. I will be forever grateful for their acceptance and support when I needed it, perhaps you need it too.
I wish you all the best and hope that you can make it through this difficult time. Please contact me if you need someone to talk to - s.walker29@yahoo.com.