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paintinginthewin
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Date: July 03, 2013 06:44PM
some research study documented your experience too- so its not just ancecdotal.
I (stooidly) used excersize to avoid using more drastic airway opening medication for several years- when I awoke in the night choking and coughing, I went into my husband's free weight gym and began pulling reps on his cable cross over, then sat in his Smyth machine (sorry no relation JS) pushing about 70 pounds in reps over my head- when I began hit a level of atheletic push-
zamo- I could breath again and stopped coughing and wheezing.
stoopid because for me it was dangerous there was a reisk unknown to the then stoopid me of the asthmatic incident getting worse- quickly- when I was alone- in the garage pumping weights trying to force that physicological response to working out LOL without a cell phone married to a rather deaf man asleep who wouldn't hear it ifn' I'd called him- can we stay stoopid-
coughing when laughin at a joke in my doctor's office I discovered that is an asthma symptom, and that waking up in the night (particularly in our air basin) wheezing is an asthma symptom. while YES one may open one's air ways- I dn't know with adreniline? they do thaaat during anaphalaxis FOR you with an epi pen- so I got stuck with an ti hist i mine and air way opener inhaler.\\
I thought I was being so smart about it=- I love my life & I would never compromise it or take a risk like driving the wrong direction or driving at night without my lights on- why would I life weights when my rescue inhaler failed - for fear of worse medication and side effects- when the side effect- of not breathing- of choking coughing and wheezing struggling to get air trying to breath- well the side effect of that-
is worse than the side effect of air way support inhaler combinations- because = its not bereathing. & that's leaving.
I apologize for my limited comprehension & past stoopidity it almost cost my darling family their lovely dw & mom & all served professionaly wouldn't ever have knew me- because I wanted to be strong. I wanted to be independent. I didnt' want to need help for any weakness and I was in denial- that after being raised between a turkey ranch and a dairy traveling in a smoke box car environment rebreathing air from two chain smokers guesss the f waht? I need help breathing. If I aint' breathing I'm leaving.
So making a long story short I'd be remiss to say that yes no one wants medicine everyone wants to be strong & I wanted to be a princess damn it every girl does. *( very few are & I hear in the old days few married for love, they lived in castles,with guards, used in political aliance buidling through marrying for their castledom's networking)
My spouse was coaching hs atheletes & he thought I was trying to have something similar to him, *never got cut muscles like him amazingly ; 0 but he thought I was despeartely trying to be more athletic & less curvy he thougth it was hysterical the russian twist machine (see Dr. Squat . com) made my glutes stick out and raised my butt when I was trying to streamline my shape and muscles under the breasts made them stick out more not less- all these mis cues and mistaken expectations- I even expected weight lifting to make me thinner slimmer taller looking like my adopted mom (Swedish Irish) rather than thickening my legs, my glutes, increasing my width my arms- gorw grow muscles- does that mean anything to you? stoopid stoopid I thought it meant slim prettier.
So there I am wrestling with my mistaken expectations of turning into a tall svelt swedish short dark haired version of my adopted mom if I JSUT LIFT WEIGHTS ENOUGH if I am tought enough strong enough last long enough damn it its going somewhere - so husband had no clue I wanted to be prettier get a taller less curvy trimmer look & I turned into a more muscled person.
trying to breath- if you push the limit until that air way opens- lifting weights- you take a risk with your life. Dont' do that get a new inhaler. &* if the old one didn't control your asthma I have learned - don't pump weight until your wheezing stops its a dangerous game.
what does this have to do with anxiety & depression? We all can benefit from forms of talk therapy- how else would I have ever discovered my mis taken expecation based on the logic of lifting heavy weights multiple reps do not make you shrink. I needed help understanding my efforts and expectations did not have matching outcome, and why I had that expectation, help to deal with it and accept myself.
and in the meantime, and anytime breathing is an issue of mine I will use an upgraded inhaler not take a risk with dying accidentally trying to be stronger & in denial.
PS life situations were depressing, & I did lift weights between kid' surgeries. it probably saved my life getting me active & proactive & something to control in a powerless situation.
the bad air quality & the sets of inhalers just krept up on me, and when one didn't work I didn't know it because I didn't notice avoiding singing and began to avoid telling jokes when I couldn't laugh- I was using a disociating defense mechanism to avoid experiencing pain (go numb) I was disociating anxiety when I coudlnt' breath deeply laugh or sing (change mood/ function)... it wasn't depression actually. So if you are numb or dissociating you don't feel or stay in the body long enough in that feelings physically- to feel, pain across your ab, or your knee, or aching when you breath, you defeel you numb physically.
lifting weights as a form of mindfulness phsically began to help me feel my body, stay, not dissociate. A few mirrors helped me see my body helped with mindfulness. And that excersize- changed me- my entire reality, even though I only began trying to change my body.
air way opening safely during an asthma attack? meh, not so much. Dr told me it was a dangerous risk, & I didn't even notice it.
Other peole had to notice- oh I see you are breathing shallowly that concerns me can we do an airway test? and believe it. believe observers. trust. trust them. trust the air way medicine.
one thing about not disociating, about staying, is you feel pain. its shocking. I was very hurt, upset- shocked- despairing- to stand hobbling on an aching knee and the pain woudln't go away- the leg didn't go numb. I couldn't believe I might need pain medication- it frightened me. Not having a dissociative defense reaction automatically pop right in and zzzip go numb- it didn't happen. LIFE IS DIFFERENT NOW>
pain serves a purpose I could have hurt that knee. Depression may serve a purpose ONLY IF IT IS A SITUATION- that you can change, that depressio made you notice it, (the situation crept up graduatlly getting overwhelming or unpleasant)-
WHY would I lift weights when the inhaler didnt' help me breatih? they had made me feel in control of something before and saved my whole life.
I think anti depressants & anti anxiety meds are something like air way openers when your best shot & everyone's making their best effort- just needs help.