You have a sense of obligation, we've been there done that.
Here are two questions you're going to have to work through.
1) If it's not true, do you even want to know?
It seems you're open to finding this out, so you're past the first big hurdle. You're willing to examine.
2) Is the church in your life a net positive or a net negative?
If it's true, then it has infinite worth,
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