To any of you scared to leave the cult, I had, for months, contemplated 'faking it' for the rest of my life. I left in December last year after 5+ years of church membership.
I lost my wife in the process. She was blindly obedient, and we were meant to try and have our first child this year... I decided however, that I wasn't willing to bring up MY children in some blind obedience fraud organisation.
It wasn't an easy decision.
I've been struggling with depression for the past few months but in April things have been starting to get better for me (without medication) and all I can say now is that I feel so amazing.
I'm so glad I didn't waste any more time in the cult. I don't have to pay them any more money. I don't have to sit down and watch conference knowing that I'm listening to fraudsters. I don't have to waste 3 hours at church every Sunday. I can live again. I don't have to be a volunteer for a fraud organisation (have a calling). I've even had a few beers over the past few months.
Now don't let the church trick you... I'm still a good person. I still help people. I still put others before myself often.
The mormons will always tell you of the happiness they find in the gospel... I've now found happiness I never knew existed after feeling trapped... and then leaving it all behind... Stop listening to the church. Stop lying to yourself.... PUT YOURSELF FIRST!
I know that now I will FOREVER be happy with myself that I was true to myself, and I put my future kids first.
If you are scared of leaving, you DO have a reason to be. Because - It's not going to be easy. BUT - It is going to be worth it.
I hope this helps somebody.
PS: Any people considering getting baptised reading this... I stumbled across these forums BEFORE getting baptised but still chose too. I'm telling you now that you can find positivity and purpose in life elsewhere. EVEN if you decide you want to be religious... find another non-denominational christian church or something.. Don't waste your time, money and emotions here.
This message board would do best if it will fill a sticky with all the positive experience people have after leaving the fraud. That would have a bigger impact than about the painful discovery of truth over an extended time. The "FEAR" factor is the big weapon the COJLDS uses against its followers.