Posted by:
julia
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Date: April 28, 2014 04:19PM
It has been several years since visited or posted on this site, and I began to believe I really had 'recovered'.
I started reading threads again a couple of weeks ago without consciously thinking about it. As I self-analyzed my reason for the recent return and voracious reading...it corresponds directly with purchasing a plane ticket back to SLC for a nieces Temple wedding.
I know many of you have been there, standing outside to support a loved one, watching the other under-age members, waiting...and having that feeling of needing to justify that you are 'Worthy".
I am the only ex-mo of a many generations pioneer stock family. When I speak to my parents, I am always the one being 'generous, thoughtful, caring, supportive (usually very supportive financially) unlike my TBM Brothers and Sisters...and yet I will be the 'Unworthy' one on that day.
I would like to scream that when it comes to anything other than the ridiculous cult, I am more than worthy. But they are so sucked in...you cant even have the conversation or debate.
Sorry...just needed to vent...it's amazing that a ticket to SLC International can deteriorate years of progress...and I am grateful to so many on this board who helped me on my way out!