Posted by:
rallychild
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Date: March 14, 2011 01:26PM
First off, thanks for the awesome advice from everyone on the other thread I started last night, it really helps and makes me feel a lot better about my situation. I wasn't able to answer all the questions on the other thread because it closed, but I just thought I'd post some of the things my mother sent to me in an email this morning, just so you know what kind of brain washed mega TBM bullshit i'm dealing with. This is what she said:
"Mitch. Nothing anyone can say will ever penetrate your heart and mind. Nothing. You have been taught the truth all your life.....as I write this I know it is fruitless - I can't even go on. I feel pain every day because you don't care. You just don't care. Your decision to not serve a mission is devastating. When you pay tithing you are protected financially. You don't pay tithing - you're broke. It's that simple. I can't continue to hurt my finances by supporting you. You don't believe your circumstances are a result of your choices - they absolutely are.
Only you have the power and potential to make your life prosperous and happy. You know how to do that but you refuse. Heavenly Father is waiting to pour out fantastic blessings upon your head and won't you have it - so you see your life beginning to have struggles - yes, whether you want to accept it or not - there is a spiritual connection.
I will have to think and pray about whether it's the right decision to give you money.
mom"
You see, in my moms eyes, every bad thing in my life and struggle is a direct result of my disobedience. I love life, I am free to choose, to do what I want, to live how I want, and I love that, but it really sucks because I am the outcast of my entire family. If I went on a mission, and "obeyed", this whole situation could have been avoided. But i'm never going back. I have to stay true to myself. My parents are divorced, and my dad helps out with money when he can, but he is kind of a dick sometimes and isn't really that helpful or supportive. My dad is really stingy and unreliable. I am still applying for jobs and I really appreciate all of the amazing feedback I received from you guys! thank you so much!