Posted by:
Cold-Dodger
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Date: November 07, 2014 07:58AM
I'm new to this website. I'm about 4 months since I started being honest with myself about my doubts and openly began researching my faith. I'm attending BYUI; everyone I know or could meet is Mormon. I'm a life-long member, served a mission in the Mid-West stateside, and have been trying to overcome serious depression and social anxiety every since I returned home. The first real peace I've had in years was when I began looking into atheism on youtube. I finally gained the confidence in my free thinking to overcome the "anti-mormon" taboo about looking into "unapproved" sources that treat Mormon scripture and history critically. Now, I'm an atheist with occasional relapses of my old sinner-in-the-hands-of-an-angry-Mormon-God mentality. I don't know where to find people like me. I feel so alone, and it doesn't help that my old unworthiness mentality that heretofore kept me anti-social from other mormons has now been replaced by the taboos and fear of church-discipline that comes with dissenting from the norm. help? advice?