Posted by:
ragingphoenix
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Date: June 05, 2015 12:11AM
A little background for those who don't know anything about me. I have bipolar disorder which is under control, but there was a large portion of my life where it wasn't. I struggle with alcohol abuse on and off. I have PTSD from things I witnessed while I was a social worker. A few years ago I attempted suicide which caused multiple organ failure but I survived.
I lost my social work license due to seeking help when I was feeling suicidal and drinking too much.
I sought help in AA and one of the friends I met there was a shift supervisor at a machine shop. He got me a job there and I've been running machines and cutting parts for a year.
That's the history.
Recently I bought some army pants from a surplus store for work. They are comfortable and function great at work with the pockets and such. Another machinist there was the one who recommended them. Anyway, I love them.
So tonight, a dickhead coworker starts to literally raise his voice at me saying that I don't deserve to wear them because I'm not military. (He isn't either and never was).
I respond by saying I respect all soldiers and that I'm not trying to be one, and that many fought and died for our freedoms, including the freedom for me to buy them and wear them.
My supervisor (AA friend) adds "as well as the freedom to chose what jobs we want and that we aren't speaking German."
The dickhead coworker starts laughing hysterically. I ask him "what?" A few times. He finally responds:
"Yeah, freedom for anyone to choose their job but you because you attempted suicide."
Impulsively I jumped up out of my chair and into his face with my arm cocked back for a strong jab. Thankfully my brain yelled "stop" and told me I'd lose my job and go to jail. Another coworker pulled me back and took me outside to smoke and cool down.
The punk was sent home for the night.
I realized after that my supervisor (AA friend) was the only one privy to that personal information that the jerk used against me. So my friend/supervisor betrayed my trust at some point.
I know I shouldn't take it personally what he said to me but not a day goes by that I don't fight the fallout of the past.
I wasted 9 years of college and grad school, and years of paid supervision. I'm in debt from student loans up to my neck and I only get paid half of what I used to.
I'm so upset right now. Even out of the mouth of a jerk, it's the truth. It's affected the lives of my wife and children.
I want to kick that guy's ass so bad but don't want to go to jail.
I don't know why I posted this. There really isn't anything to say. I just needed to vent and I don't have any close friends available currently.
Thanks for listening...
Edited 3 time(s). Last edit at 06/05/2015 12:19AM by ragingphoenix.