Posted by:
Holy the Ghost
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Date: August 29, 2015 02:54PM
I was 9 and I needed the world to make sense. The LDS "gospel" just could not let it happen.
When I was a lad my family up and moved to a new country. It was an adventure at the time, and I did not realize how momentous it was to leave family behind, with a very real possibility that we might never see them again.
Reality set in very quickly. We loved our new home, but I remember a few nights I cried myself to sleep missing grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins.
Then about a year after arriving, my Granddad died.
It was about the time I turned 9. It was the first death I experienced once I was old enough to know what death meant.
So I needed to make sense of the situation. And everything would make more sense if I could get an answer to the question "is my Granddad in Heaven?"
A simple "yes" is what my 9 year old psyche really needed.
But the best I could get from my Mother, primary teacher, or Sunday School teacher was "it depends what you mean by heaven."
I was 9. I didn't need everyone to evade the question, I needed the world to make sense.
Yeah, LDS church, thanks for that.