Posted by:
koriwhore
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Date: January 31, 2017 10:42PM
Hamster On A Wheel Wrote:
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> I feel as if if I started
> looking at faith especially christian faith I will
> be asked straight back into Mormon chains.
I've always been open minded, or so I thought.
But when it came to answering my children's questions about the faith they inherited, which I inherited, through 5 generations of my family, I took their questions seriously. I never felt good about the whole "Curse of Cain" myth being incorporated into Mormon scriptures. I never did accept it even as a Mormon missionary. If anybody brought it up, I'd deny the church was racist. But there came a point in my life where my children, my oldest boys, who are quite intelligent, were asking questions about the whole Curse of Cain thing and the whole Lamanite thing and evolution and how it all fit together.
My initial response was "Yes that's in the Scriptures. Yes Mormon leaders have been racist in the past and might still be. But personally, I don't believe it. Not a word of it. I don't accept creationism, I accept the theory of evolution. The Earth is obviously far older than the 6,000 yrs account in both the Bible and Mormon scriptures.
I think their math was off. Way off."
My kids would say, "So you don't believe in the scriptures?"
"Parts of it. I don't believe what it has to say about physical reality or the history of the physical universe, at all. That's what kept people in the dark ages for 1,000yrs. I believe in the reality that's revealed by science, which proves those naive theories wrong and Morally, I just think you can't reconcile racism with Christ's commandment to love our fellow men as ourselves. I still believe in that. That's what guides me. Not 19th Century racist myths used to enslave blacks and murder Indians so we could take their land."
But the more I thought about it, the more it bothered me that my fellow Mormons didn't feel the same way as me. There were racist things that came up all the time. My children were in seminary and my Bishop's wife was their teacher. I told my son what Brigham young said about blacks, and how horrible it was that he said they should be murdered for mixing their blood with whites. He brought that up in Seminary to his teacher, in front of the whole class. She said, "Well, I hate to say this because I know how horrible it sounds, but he was right. That's always been the punishment for inter-racial marriage, according to the law of God, which doesn't change."
4 of the kids in that room just got told that their parents deserved the death penalty and that they were cursed by God. Fuck that shit!!! GD IT!!!! IT's the 21st FUCKING century!!!!
I was furious.
But WTF was I supposed to do?
I went and complained to my Bishop about his racist wife. Turns out he was a fucking racist too. This is the man who delivered 3/4 of our children and was my wife's OB/Gyn, who told me, when I complained about the blatant racism STILL contained in Mormon scriptures and STILL being taught behind closed doors, "Why did Jesus tell his disciples to not preach to the Sumerians?"
I said, "I don't know. Maybe because they were skeptics and good debaters?"
He said, "No, because they were gentiles and not the Chosen People."
I said, "You've got to be kidding me, right? Are you seriously telling me that white people are superior to blacks right now?"
He said, "I'm telling you the Curse of Cain is real. It's right there in the scriptures."
I said to him, "You're my wife's Dr. If you believe that's real. I'm telling her to switch Doctors."
He said to me, "Look, you've got the right to have these doubts, but if you express them to other Mormons, I'll be forced to discipline you."
I said, "Even my wife and kids?"
He said, "Especially your wife and kids."
I was shocked. I shook my head in disbelief. He didn't answer my question, instead he threatened me with the humiliation of church discipline for sticking up for my kids, who are part Native American and being taught they're inferior to all the WHtie and Delightsome people in the Mormon church, just because of their heritage? I went home, put the finishing touches on my resignation letter and sent it in to SLC the next day, with a copy to my racist asshole Bishop as a big FUCK YOU to him and his racist wife.
Of course that didn't go over well with my wife. She understood, but was pissed that I just told her long time family friend, OB/Gyn to go fuck himself and the horse he rode in on. lol
Long story short, I too was left w/o a religion, after 5 generations of nothing but Mormonism to rely upon. I was also left w/o a wife, a house or a happy Mormon family.
Wife got the house and I became beach bum bachelor.
I found my place in paradise and I love my freedom.
Now most of my days are spent inventing cool ways to get out on the water and encounter the wild.
The outdoors is my church.
My god is the same god as the Dalai Lama, Einstein, Sagan, and Dawkins, nature.
I worship it every day, by getting out in it, one way or another.
I just invented a surf hammock and spent 10 days in Maui surfing in a hammock, with an anchor, so I could anchor off and swim with Sea Turtles, tons of them, who loved my cool surf hammock.
I could just drop down below deck and hang out with them and listen to the love songs of 10,000 humpbacks, all day and all night. I sleep in a treehouse on the beach most nights, but often I sleep beneath the Milky Way on Maui Bay, with 10,000 of my closest friends singing love songs to the Great Attractor in the center of the black whole.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 01/31/2017 10:57PM by koriwhore.