Posted by:
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Date: April 03, 2017 10:22PM
I was 39 years old, divorced less than a week after 17 years of an abusive marriage. The abusive ex had left me drowning in depression, so deeply that I was no longer functional. (I found myself at work one day, looking at a page of the operations manual, and it might as well have been written in Sanskrit. I couldn't decode letters. Me, one of the most ardent readers ever. My mind was THAT scrambled.) I so admitted myself to a local psych hospital, spent two months there, and came back better and a little bit stronger.
THEN, the husband told me I could have the divorce that I had wanted for YEARS, but that because I was now demonstrably "insane,", HE would have full custody of our son, and if I consulted an attorney, even once, he would see to it that my medical records were "released into public record." I didn't think he could do that, but I was still so emotionally fragile - and didn't dare consult an attorney - so I couldn't know for sure.
The real hell of it was that I could not understand why he wanted custody of our son, who was 11 at that time. Husband had refused to care for him in any way - never once changed a diaper, prepared a bottle, transported him to day care or to the doctor. I was essentially a single mom. So why the sudden interest??
DH the current explained to me: The ex didn't want to have to pay child support. Bingo. There it was. MONEY was the primary deity worshipped by the ex. He spent lavishly on lifestyle and girlfriend. He literally could not afford child support.
But at the time the mishies found me, I had just moved into a new place by myself, had not yet adopted the kittens who would become "foster children" for me, and was drowning in loneliness, guilt, and confusion. And my son had been taken from me when I had been I had been his only real parent.
The divorce judge - who knew me and my son from church - looked straight at me and asked, "Are all parties in agreement on this?" I couldn't return his direct look. I closed my eyes to keep from crying, and nodded. (Later, I would tell him and his wife - who was a good friend - the REAL story. He said that I should have advised him. My ex's attorney told me that I must not approach the judge directly if I did not have an attorney, so I had not dared.)
So this was the mess I was in when the mishies found me.
I had just gotten home from work on a nasty, rainy day, and had put a kettle on for tea, when there was a knock at the door. And there were these two adorable mishies.
I didn't need a new religion. I desperately needed human warmth and caring. Those mishies, appearing when they did, probably saved my life.