Posted by:
Tori
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Date: January 11, 2018 10:36PM
Hey!
I think I kind of get where you're coming from. Mostly. Both of my parents are hardcore Mormons, and I have made many, many decisions in my life according to what they would like me to do most, from schooling, to church, to callings and how I spent my free time. Everything in my life is planned out. I'm supposed to go on a mission in a month, yet, I don't want to go, because I no longer believe in the church.
There are many things that Mormons reach that the Bible doesn't even HINT towards, and information about the truth of the church's latter day history is ignored and covered up by the church. They try very hard to hide up undesirable things (like any human), and this hit me very hard when I started to do research. A lot of things didn't make any sense, and a lot of things had no basis to them.
Now, I don't believe anyone is inherently bad, and I do think a lot of things that the LDS faith teaches can make a good impact on the lives of people; but, so can things that most of the religions of the world teach.
I'm leaving Tuesday. I've been saving up from my job, and I'm planning on moving out west to avoid the stigma I would receive from everyone I know for leaving the church. I will tell my mother in the morning that I don't believe it anymore, and that in order to ease the strain of that on our relationship, I'm moving out. I do love her, so it will be immensely hard to do this, but I know that it's the right thing for me to do in order for me to make my own decisions without feeling pressure to be the good little Mormon girl I am, anymore.
I do highly suggest making sure oh can support purse for at least 6 months before you leave, if you do. If you're in school, and you desperately need to get out of your situation (like me, since I was only going to school for my parents anyway), then drop out and explore career ideas by just reading and taking to people while you work for a living.
And, if you need someone to talk to, we're all here- and so are many other forums and chats. Okay?
Best of luck, OP