It feels like any of us that tried to break off from religion are not around anymore. It would bring me some comfort if i wasn't the only one for some reason.
Badassadam1 Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > We f#cking did it, we made it out without dying, > although you are better off than i am for sure.
Today I may be, but all of us are one horrible accident or crime away from catastrophe. I hate to be so fatalistic, but I'm just enjoying it while things are good. There's no guarantee things will remain good.
scmdnotloggedin Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > Badassadam1 Wrote: > -------------------------------------------------- > ----- > > We f#cking did it, we made it out without > dying, > > although you are better off than i am for sure. > > > Today I may be, but all of us are one horrible > accident or crime away from catastrophe. I hate to > be so fatalistic, but I'm just enjoying it while > things are good. There's no guarantee things will > remain good.
Enjoy it for me, i think i may be on my way to better days in the next couple years.
Badassadam1 Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > It feels like any of us that tried to break off > from religion are not around anymore.
Aren't around where? In your limited orbit of acquaintances?
olderelder Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > Badassadam1 Wrote: > -------------------------------------------------- > ----- > > It feels like any of us that tried to break off > > from religion are not around anymore. > > Aren't around where? In your limited orbit of > acquaintances?
Don't more than 200,000 people come to this site. Where the hell are the kids from the early 1980's. I know the cemetaries they are in.
Maybe most young people just don't come to this site.... or we weren't in long enough to really have much to recover from.
I don't really post much on this board. I'm more of a lurker and reader and if a topic interests me enough I'll chime in. Usually I don't have anything significant to say.
I was born into the church but not the covenant as my mother was the only member. I was born in the 1960's and turned into a jack mo by the 1980's. Finally resigned in the early 2000's and here I am still kickin'.
My case is much the same. Born in the late 50s to an active mom and a non-member dad. But boy, he went to meetings with her almost every Sunday. (I left in the 80s when I realized that women weren’t getting the priesthood any time soon.) His story’s more interesting than mine...
When the Family Home Evening program was introduced in about 1965, dad was so gung-ho about it that our bishop invited him to teach the FHE lessons. Pretty bizarre, seeing my dad teaching lessons in Sunday school.
No, he never joined ... but now I regret that I contributed to his conversion. At YBU I wrote him my very long testimony (pleading with him to join) inside the flyleaf of a BoM for him. I found it in his nightstand after he died – he had been reading it.
Eventually he got that testimony of the whole thing, not just FHE. That was shortly before he died, about 40 years after he taught those lessons. After his death, mom’s family did his temple work ~ of course.
uhhsoyeah Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > BIC from late, late 70s here. Still mostly alive.
That counts for me. So out of 200,000 people that come to this site, there is about 4 of us. Had a feeling the number was few. But i had to know for sure out of curiousity. Curiousity gets the best of me when i don't see anyone in their early 30's for about four years in this town.
Leaving the cult caused problems socially, with the Mormons, but it SOLVED all our other problems.
No more physical abuse for me and my children No more mental abuse No more judgments and blame for "nothing" No more punishments for stupid things like being late for a meeting, wearing the wrong underwear, choosing family over church, and other stuff that are NOT SINS in the eyes of God No more being depressed No more PTSD triggers No more arguments with my kids about religion. They were the wiser ones!
My life is so great, that I would go through all the trouble of leaving, all over again--even if I had only one more day to live! That one day would have been worth it!
Please understand that leaving is not the end, but the beginning of your real life.
But don't listen to me. I'm old enough that I should be dead.
Mother Who Knows Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > Not only alive, but thriving! > > Leaving the cult caused problems socially, with > the Mormons, but it SOLVED all our other > problems. > > No more physical abuse for me and my children > No more mental abuse > No more judgments and blame for "nothing" > No more punishments for stupid things like being > late for a > meeting, wearing the wrong underwear, choosing > family over church, and other stuff that are NOT > SINS in the eyes of God > No more being depressed > No more PTSD triggers > No more arguments with my kids about religion. > They were the wiser ones! > > My life is so great, that I would go through all > the trouble of leaving, all over again--even if I > had only one more day to live! That one day would > have been worth it! > > Please understand that leaving is not the end, but > the beginning of your real life. > > But don't listen to me. I'm old enough that I > should be dead.
I want to thrive as well but its going to take more work still.
Yes many die from suicide for good reason. I just got threatened by church security on this board and i haven't set foot in a church building in a little over a year and a half. They track you even after you leave, it never f#cking ends.
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Badassadam1 Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > Yes many die from suicide for good reason. I just > got threatened by church security on this board > and i haven't set foot in a church building in a > little over a year and a half. They track you > even after you leave, it never f#cking ends.
How did church security threaten you on this board?
scmdnotloggedin Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > Badassadam1 Wrote: > -------------------------------------------------- > ----- > > Yes many die from suicide for good reason. I > just > > got threatened by church security on this board > > and i haven't set foot in a church building in > a > > little over a year and a half. They track you > > even after you leave, it never f#cking ends. > > > How did church security threaten you on this > board?
I think the entire thread got erased but they did threaten me with a warning. I got church security to actually post and say i was yellow flagged or some sh#t.
Had a feeling i was being monitored by church officials of somekind this whole time. You can kind of feel it sometimes. When you think you are free you are still not free.
Badassadam1 Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > scmdnotloggedin Wrote: > -------------------------------------------------- > ----- > > Badassadam1 Wrote: > > > -------------------------------------------------- > > > ----- > > > Yes many die from suicide for good reason. I > > just > > > got threatened by church security on this > board > > > and i haven't set foot in a church building > in > > a > > > little over a year and a half. They track > you > > > even after you leave, it never f#cking ends. > > > > > > How did church security threaten you on this > > board? > > I think the entire thread got erased but they did > threaten me with a warning. I got church security > to actually post and say i was yellow flagged or > some sh#t.
Did church security really post on this board? even if there was a message from someone saying he represented church security, are you sure it wasn't someone just messing with you?
That's extremely Orwellian, it's just like in 1984 when Big Brother catches Winston and Julia knocking boots and commanding voices start coming out from behind the walls just before the "Gestapo" comes crashing in.
If you're on your way out, then make it official quickly and firmly, I don't know how any dignified person could tolerate or forgive that.
Anziano Young Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > Where do you live? That's probably part of the > problem with your thinking that there are no other > exmos your age. > > BIC 1981
It is where i live. I did find a thirty year old that left when she was fifteen so i can relate to one person in this town a little bit.
All my children were BIC's from the early 80's and they don't come here because they don't give a rip about the church. They're living their lives like normal people.
Well i am very proud of them. I thought i was normal for a time in my twenties making good money and all but i was just burying the past within myself.