Date: January 22, 2019 09:04PM
I value my integrity, but I had no reservations about lying to Mormons. I actually enjoyed lying to them, as a passive-aggressive way for a little female "nobody" to get even with them. Never, for one second did I feel I was lying to God. I believed in God, and Christ, but never believed that they had anything to do with Mormonism, at all.
I even lied in the temple, during the blood oaths. I actually had my fingers crossed behind my back, and was saying in my mind, "Please, God, I don't mean this!"
I felt intimidated by those interviews, but I was never worried that I would not be granted a temple recommend. I knew that the Mormons wanted my money, and I was willing to pay for my temple recommend, and that was all that was going to matter to them.
If I had not gotten a temple recommend, my TBM husband would have beaten me (again). If I had not gotten a temple recommend another time, I would have not been allowed to attend my daughter's temple wedding. So, I lied and made a huge donation to the Mormon cult.
The questions are odd, in their convoluted wording, and perhaps this makes it easier for Mormons to lie. The questions, I'm sure, are handed down in written form from the corporate headquarters, and either read or memorized by the bishop. Some examples of these are:
"Do you associate with apostates or any apostate groups?" Well these conglomerate sentences are just weird. Associating with an apostate GROUP, such as a polygamous group or an organized protest group is different than associating with individual family-member apostates. And, what does "associating with" mean? I more than associate with them, I love them, and I live for them. What's an apostate, anyway? Apostates are the finest people I know. They aren't criminals. God seems to love them. Was I supposed to answer this loaded double-question with a simple yes or no? I hesitated, and chose "no", because I do not associate with any apostate group.
"Do you believe that Joseph was a prophet of God and that the COJCOLDS church is the only true church on this earth, and all the other churches are false?" (I suspect my bishop was taking license with these words, to trip me up.) At the time, I believed that JS was a prophet, but I had been to other churches, and believed them to be just as "true" as the Mormon church. The members were good people, and they were doing good, to help others, and worship Christ and God, and I felt there was nothing "false" about them. Again, I answered only part of this triple question question, the part that was a "Yes."
"Are you sexually moral?" or whatever that question is. Well, sitting here, right now, "yes."
"Do you obey the word of wisdom?" "Yes." Nobody is sure what-the-heck that is, these days. Is diet Pepsi OK and Coke not OK? If you heated these as a hot drink, would they be not-OK? What about iced tea? Valium? Too much meat? What about all the Mormon leaders who are obese?
Was I horrible, to treat this whole thing as a joke? Should I have shown respect to liars and money grabbers who hijacked my daughter's wedding, and were plotting to steal my money, as we spoke?
No one knew I lied. How many other Mormons in my same situation felt the same way, and lied? We'll never know.