Posted by:
Suke Lkywalkee
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Date: August 29, 2019 08:39PM
Broke out of a cycle of abuse. Heavy conformity of opinions, recurring put downs, lots of alcohol, emotional outburts and honey-moons.
Now the same people want to get me back into the game. They are after my self-esteem, they have to get rid of it to get me back under their control. They are desperately trying to unseat me from my position of power. They are trying anything and it is scary. I feel it is like something not going on at a intellectual level, they are like wounded animals going on pure instinct. They do not see any value in anything I have achieved and they seem to be completely blinded by their narrow bias. They smear me, spreading lies, dog-whistle me at social events.
My new self-esteem have helped me lose weight, stopped drinking (sober for 19 months), enrolled at a university and will study for at least 5,5 years to reach a degree in a profession.
The sick thing is that these people say that they care about me but why do they try to put me down and crush my self-esteem!?
That is way I think they are irrational. They have no clue what they are doing. They do not see what I am doing.