Posted by:
Elder Berry
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Date: February 24, 2020 01:54PM
I don't have a bishop to confess to. I don't like my eldest sister. So much so that I would side with a sister who abused me more than her.
Such drama for a middle aged man.
My eldest sister has always been obsessed with higher social class than we exhibited. And she has always been my father's favorite. He was the one who talked her into not marrying her high school sweetheart. She has always been the one he gave most of his attention to growing up.
And now they are going to put in into a home. His father Rulon Jeffs seems to have hit the same thing as my father. My father has boughts of clarity but most of the time he is silent or talks like a child.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rulon_JeffsIf my father lives until 92 it will be 2027.
But my sister was right. She said he needed to be put in a home before his car accident. Thank God he didn't hurt or kill anyone. My sister understands the elderly. It was her master's degree focus. I hate to admit it but she is right.
And then there is my mother. My father is in good health for his age but she is a terrible care provider. In the last two weeks he has been left at the temple and one of her volunteer gigs and he walked away from both places. It took the charity of some people he was in the temple with to pick him up and take him home. My mother has told us that she wishes he would die. And actually at her volunteer gig he was so agitated and being forced to stay there that she took him to the ER for them to deal with him. I guess that was a blessing. They found he probably had had a small stroke. He is seeing a neurologist this week.
What shocks me is how affect I am about all of this. My wife gentle reminded me that my parents had provided for me and there were some good times and these are the ties that bind so it is understandable that I am affected.
I guess I just need to acknowledge to you and I will to my sister if I see her again that she was right. My mother is not going to want to care for him and I guess since they are close to the same age, it might on a couple of years not even be an option.
Thanks for listening. I feel stupid and petty and sad. I wouldn't want to put anyone in a home. I won't take care of my father and he doesn't even remember me anymore. I don't know if that hurts more or my own desire like that of my mother to not help the old man shuffle into his Mormon afterlife. Publicly acknowledging I was wrong does feel better.
Edit: God what a mess.
My younger brother (of the doodles) is a former doctor before his condition prevented him from doing surgery. He got the appointment with the specialist and just texted that getting any kind of appoint with quick requires pull. He can't reach my mother and was desperate to get our father to his appointment today.
My polygamist sister stepped up. My mother is probably working or volunteering and not at home. Who knows. My family is crazy. My father needs a god to help him at this point. My thoughts an fears are with him.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 02/24/2020 02:10PM by Elder Berry.