Posted by:
casey
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Date: November 08, 2021 12:08PM
I don't know what kind of response I'll get from this - if any. It's been months now since I started this spiral. BIC, temple marriage - raised 4 kids mormon. 6 mos ago I started investigating stuff on my 'shelf'. Now I know it's all a bunch of bullsh$t. Knew a lot about early church stuff but not details. I had no idea about Polyandry - so messed up. I feel duped, lost and alone. My wife knows I'm having some kind of crisis but I don't want to hurt her. I can't go to church anymore cuz I feel angry there. Any excuse I can find not to go I will take. 50/50 split on wearing garments. Just reaching out. I do have one brother who I've talked to - but he's a 'born-again' Christian and thinks he can convert me now. I don't have the heart to tell him that I don't even know if the whole Christ story is believable. I might be turning Athiest or at least Agnostic. Oh God... or Oh science. How do I even exclaim anymore... geez.. so messed up.