Posted by:
spwdone
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Date: February 26, 2013 11:33PM
I write too. A lot. I share some of it on my blog, some of it never goes anywhere but it helps me process. I'd be lying though, if I didn't say I have been through a lot of real anger, frustration and hatred towards TSCC and those who pushed it at over the years since I left. I have and although I am making progress, I still have instances of extreme rage at what TSCC has cost me in my life.
Also, I am very fortunate that I have 3 brothers and one sister who are also ex-mo's. We shared the same parental abuse and LDS brainwashing growing up, so we are able to talk about a lot of stuff and help each other through the rough patches and to have some perspective.
These sessions frequently involve copious amounts of alcohol (but not always), which also seems to be therapeutic. Sometimes we laugh our asses off, sometimes it's serious, but it's helpful.
I am also really, really lucky to have a never-mo husband who was totally supportive while I was TBM even though he never got it, just because he knew it was important to me and has been even more supportive since I left. I didn't find out 'til I left how much he resented TSCC, he hid it well and I was probably too busy doing church work to notice what he didn't manage to hide.Yeesh.
For those who don't have siblings, having someone to talk to, whether it's here or wherever, is always a good thing. I highly recommend writing, too. It helps to put things on paper, at least for me.
Also, obviously, I'm here. I wasn't for a long time because I mistakenly thought I was over it. I wasn't and probably never will be, it was a huge part of my life and affected who I am and how I think, feel, react, even though I wish it didn't.
So, I'm back and find it helpful to know I'm not alone and to hear from likeminded people who were also completely hoodwinked and betrayed by TSCC.