Posted by:
TheBishop'sDaughter
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Date: August 27, 2016 09:36AM
That my dad was found out to be a fraud. It has been a very interesting recovery for me because not only have I learned about all the lies the church teaches, that my own dad was so good at pretending we're truths, but I also learned that my dad was using the church in his callings (always in leadership) and his work to manipulate and con people. I recently wrote my exit story, and I think I didn't get to write everything out clearly. My dad has always been my hero, I looked up to him in every way. He was silly and fun (when he was around and not at church) and I thought he was the ideal man to mold my future husband after. So, when the crap hit the fan over a year ago, my entire family was devastated. But through that terrible time came a wonderful blessing, half of my siblings quit attending church. We were all sick and tired of spinning our wheels for "the man" and being told what to do. We are all the independent ones in the family. We have all bonded so close through this. Where we were somewhat close before, we now openly share our feelings without shame.there was such a wall between us all because of the church. We've all admitted to this now. I feel free being out, I want to resign soon. I feel very very lucky because my husband is with me, we found the church to be fake at the same time. I was so afraid to tell him my feelings, but when I did it turned out he was having the same doubts. Seeing how my dad could con and manipulate people as an "inspired" leader push me to my limit and forced me to really search for truth elsewhere. It's been a blessing and a curse. I am still very hurt and emotional over my dad and the church he and my mom raised me in. But I am free. I have felt held back for many years now and I can be open about who I truly am inside. I don't talk to my dad much. I'm contemplating cutting him off for good. Every time I speak with him he only wants to talk about surface fake shit that you get from all TBM's. It's all a front and it sends me into a lot of depression and pain. I want a real relationship, I'm done with fake. Thank you for listening, sometimes I just need to vent about it all, it's overwhelming and hard to deal with.