Posted by:
brownie
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Date: October 27, 2017 01:13PM
If they do not walk up to every covenant they make at these altars in this temple this day, they will be in MY power!"
How many times has this threat, repeatedly etched into one's psyche, reverberated endlessly not unlike their famed "eternity mirrors," subconsciously dictated one's decisions?
I have not yet made the halfway mark; that is, more than half of my life thus far was spent in mental servitude to the dictation of thoughts not my own.
Brainwashing, indeed.
Consciousness squirming in the discomfort of cognitive dissonance, trying to wriggle free of externally-determined thought, looking for another source of "guidance," attempting with unknown terror to allow the seeds of my own brilliance to take root...yet again choosing self-destructive actions.
We are told repeatedly, directly, and implicitly, that one cannot be trusted, that one is incapable and incompetent to THINK properly without (their) external direction.
"You have choice!" they insist...
"We know you'll make the RIGHT one."
The caveat.
Damn you for taking my mind.
Damn you for hijacking my thoughts.
Damn you for stealing my life, for insisting insistently that you hold the key to MY happiness.
I WILL laugh loudly!
My mind is light, now filled with its own brilliance!
I openly MOCK you, goddamn it, my voice uncut despite your violent harbingers!
I will not be in your power, or anyone's.
I have my own.