Posted by:
sb
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Date: November 17, 2021 05:54PM
One of the issues that took me years to correct after leaving Mormonism is the skewed perspective, anxiety and stress that the Mormon lifestyle installs in member's lives.
I was always overwhelmed, reacting to the next 3 things I was supposed to do. At age 23 I was the EQP of ward of 400+ people, doing visits, calls, temple trips, camping, volunteering, cleaning the chapel, reading and praying, activities, meetings and planning for 25-35 hours a week on top of working 50+ hours. This does not include communing or taking 12 credit hours of college, institute classes or dealing with my wife's infertility or the imposed poverty that Mormonism delegates to your married couples.
At the end of each day, if I had a minute to think, it was to feel guilty about my food storage, my lesson preparation and the other million shortcomings that I was soaking in within Mormonism.
Years of this lifestyle changed my mental cadence to always be in a hurry, never enjoying things for more than a few minutes, never taking time for myself. Even many years later, I sometimes just sat to enjoy a single malt on ice and do nothing, only to start feeling guilty a few minutes later becuase more could be done.
I cannot express the joy and peace that NOT being constantly hustled, guilt-tripped and conned 24/7 brings. I sometimes enjoy the fact that I don't feel that anymore as much as I enjoy the activity I am doing at the time.
Mormons have a plan for 24 hours of your day, removing that parasite from my life freed my peace and quality of life more than I'll ever be able to express.
The only happiness the full Mormon experience can offer is the respite of people telling you that you are amazing as you try to stay awake in Sunday meetings.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 11/17/2021 06:00PM by sb.