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forestpal
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Date: October 19, 2012 01:47PM
Oh, how I wish the Mormons could read this wonderful thread! There is so much sincerity, and genuine feeling! We all have experienced that sense of loss, followed by the peace and satisfaction of knowing the truth, at last. Not an offended one in the bunch.
I, too had a full shelf of cog dis. I never read anything "anti-Mormon", but I studied the scriptures on my own and in SS classes, seminary, BYU, institute, etc. The BOM was the worst book I ever read. The only words that might have been "The Word of God" were the words JS plagiarized from the Bible. I believed in the Bible, so that fooled me for many years.
Spiritually, I felt the absence of unconditional love, and the increasing, blatant absence of Christ in the Mormon church.
My Ah-Ha moment came when I came onto RFM, asking questions about the rules for a temple divorce/cancellation of sealing/temple clearance. The terminology for this kept changing, and the rules kept changing. The man I had been sealed to beat me badly, and I had divorced him on the grounds of extreme physical cruelty, and the thug was still stalking me--but the church didn't care about that. I tried again with each new bishop, and they would say yes, I could have a cancellation of sealing, but then a few months later I would ask again and they would say no I could not have one. My hairdresser got a cancellation in only a few weeks (divorcing a perfectly nice husband), because her father had a high church calling and was a close friend of GBH. Were these God's rules?
When the Stake presidency came over to my house that last time to inform me that I could NEVER get a temple divorce unless I married another Mormon in the temple, they also told me in no uncertain terms that my children (by my second husband, years after the divorce) were also officially, eternally sealed to the wife-beater--I knew this was not God's religion. I felt a flash of anger, quickly followed by a peaceful, grounded inspiration of what I should do: get out of the cult. It was nothing but a man-made cult. My children resigned with me, and that unhappiness is gone from our life.
This was before finding out about all the other lies. What a can of worms!
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 10/19/2012 01:52PM by forestpal.