I nourished my brain with information. Books. Anything I could get my hands on. I dug into the subjects that resonated with me further. Someone who has helped me immensely throughout my journey to find methods to recover my authentic self is Alejandro Jodorowsky. He is a Chilean filmaker, poet, & spiritualist. He is definitely out there, very alternative, but I consider him to be a wise &
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My mom is the same. To this day a dirty snoop. I was an avid poet/artist as a child & her snooping caused me to cease my writing pretty early on. She would also find and read letters other people had written to me in high school and flip out. I write as much as I can now. I have a composition book for each year full of writing, sketches, rituals, & the like. When my parents visit now
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I was able to watch this yesterday on a free site with little popups(vidlocker) & found it to be razor sharp, chilling, & haunting.... & the fact that Nick Cave narrates makes it very special. Brought a lot of emotion to the surface.... & I'm pretty sure I want to sample Warren's monotone mind control lip gurgling to layer into some music to accompany an art installation show.
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I'm going to have to pay you royalties for that one!....
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Thank you for this post StrayMutt. This year has been a nightmare for me within this same scenario. My fairly reconstructed relationship with my folks was going better, that is until my estranged brother "suddenly" had stage 4 cancer. I have not spoken to my abusive older brother in over 11 yrs, & he is the reason, other than my apostate-ism for my general estrangement from th
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I suffer from a number of parasomnias, sleep paralysis, hypnagogic hallucinations, talking/walking/sex while asleep... you name it. My sleep life has always been colorful & lucid. I was a frequent sleepwalker as a child, but luckily I have outgrown that part. I remember having waking nightmares accompanied by a presence as a child. Usually in the form of the door of my bedroom being quickl
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Mine sure are coughing up their 20%
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I was baptized rapid fire for 144 names in one session at 12. PS.... It was like being being waterboarded by an auctioneer....
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I agree with Mark Twain... "It is chloroform in print."
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I most certainly got asked if I masturbated right before being forced to be dunked for the dead as a 12 yro girl.....
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What episode??? I've only watched the first season...
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Yes, finally! thank you, mom, for the influence of your fine m0ronic inbreeding.... I am so very thankful for the celiac disease, lupus, endometriosis, female pattern balding, & especially....the schizophrenia... So blessed to have them all at once, & at such an early age!! weeeee! oh,& my brother is thankful for his one big mutant kidney, among other things...
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moose! since you are related to David W Patten, then we are related. Probably cousins. Good luck with the unveiling!
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I thought I was reading an excerpt from my own journal, Whodunit.... My father worked full time for the park service, was a full time scoutmaster, & a 1st counselor for 15 yrs. (He didn't become a bishop until after they had an empty nest) My mother was(is) emotionally ill, cold, abusive, & not much of a homemaker. My siblings were much older & got out a decade before I did, so
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Rent a car & drive 60 miles towrds UT & see the Valley of Fire.... one of the most special & beautiful places on earth. Was home to the Hopi & other indigenous tribes & has been used in many movies, particularly space movies, like Star trek ;) Its very worth it.
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I've always followed the philosophy of Sampson, Native American warriors, & modern day metal heads. My hair is my powerful psychic antennae, & I will rock it long, disheveled, & in it's formidable natural ginger state, that is until I lose it(which will inevitably happen- thanks mom). Then, like Brigantia.... I will most likely be investing in some awesome space inspired coloure
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Yes YES! Please Do one over Thanksgiving so I can sneak out too.... just like old times!!!! Best birthday gift ever
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haHA! I once had to attend an "etiquette" (wife grooming) meeting held for YM in the early 90's. There was indeed a laundry segment. Seriously had to watch 4 different women come up & tediously demonstrate how to perfectly fold fitted sheets- over & over & over.....
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I still have to "family proof" my home when my folks come around. They've finally gotten used to the fact I drink yerba mate(they thought it was pot for awhile!) & coffee & am really into herbal medicine(no more snide comments), yet there are still so many things I have to hide.... including myself. I am covered in tattoos & I'm pretty sure that they are aware, yet I
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As my father would say: "but mormons only help mormons..."
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I thought only ex mormons went to outer darkness?! Because they had the chance to accept the true gospel & failed. I was taught that people who never had the chance to receive the gospel couldn't go to outer darkness because they never had a chance on earth.(Hence dunkin for the dead) Guess I'll be driving the bus! Sounds like a party!
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I feel it is deeply ingrained, especially for some women. I never truly believed in the church, even as a child being forced to pantomime & mouth meaningless mantras. My parents were very strict about the fasts, even as a small child, & if I raised any fuss about it, I would also have to forgo dinner after a day full of droning meetings & go to bed hungry while everyone else was brea
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Excellent choices! Along these lines I also recommend "Extraordinary Popular Delusions & the Madness of Crowds" by Charles Mackay. It was technically written before JS formed the church,so it has no anti-mormon anything, but it remains a hilarious anecdote & covers everything from the Salem witch trials to alchemy to the Crusades. I believe a redux of this book would have to
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My father believes just this.... My loving partner is Chilean. He was born in Chile of an Italian mother & a Mapuche(indigenous latino)father. Since we got together he(my father) has insisted that he send us a BoM for him to read. I squelched my laughter the first time he commented on this (as he had also been sending me strange literature from what I researched to be TBM apologist h
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I just answer the door naked with all my tattooed feminine glory hangin out. I tried dousing myself in fake blood first once...in which hilarity ensued. Scared them straight....
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I love this Tal..... keep em' coming!
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When I was in high school in the mid 90's, a boy from a stake up the road from our small community in NV was sent to serve in Russia. He was stabbed to death, & his partner also(who survived) http://www.deseretnews.com/article/658069/LDS-missionary-slain-in-Russia.html?pg=all
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It happened to me at 15. I was a 4.0 student, had never done drugs or drank alcohol or had sex....was involved in many clubs at school.....but I looked weird apparently. My lack of faith & that alone got me thrown from my home. I moved away from Mordor & lived with my Catholic aunt & her sexy, bleeding Jesus in Sin city, got accepted into limited entry art magnet school, & neve
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I can attest to everything said above (all of this), as I feel I am with my twin flame now. He def resonates on a MUCH higher frequency, & he needs me to stay on the ground. ...& never have I met another who could soothe & refract my c-PTSD(due to being raised in the cult & bouncing from one abuser to the next) within a simple word. We're exact opposites, & from the
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if this is true, I'm ordering shots of tequila before noon today!
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