Hey Don, funny, I just so saw your kool-aid comment on the U Toob forum under the trailer ;)
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As someone with a degree that my father says is useless(surprise, it's film) I found it very fresh to watch even though it's a pretty tired story line. Also, the main reason I watched it was because I read a 5 star review (that was obviously from a fomo) that had me absolutely busting a gut. If you skim you will know.... Worth it. Watch it. Trigger warning, if you have been stalked in real
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So my apologies if this has been discussed on here already, but I just randomly watched a steamy thriller/horror film on the Netflix about a mormon missionary (who is also a crazy stalker) It was slow to get into, but oh so so worth it. Actually pretty scary in the end. It's called: "Missionary" Imagine that... Did anyone else see it? Thoughts??
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I second Itzpapalotl on this. You are most likely an empath, or possibly have considerable connection to the character itself. That's ok, and it will pass. I suggest doing some kind of funerary "ritual" to help yourself say goodbye and move on. This could be something like writing down everything that you loved about it, then bury the letter while planting new flower bulbs on top. Or
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I am Scotch-Irish & Norwegian, and I wear a shamrock button every year that upon closer inspection reads: KISS ME My Pagan Heritage was EXTERMINATED by the Catholic church
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Oh man. Sorry to hear that. Baptisms for the dead were my last straw with the church at 12 years old, so hearing about sneaky ones really chap my hide. My father was a convert, and his family never really forgave my mother for being the reason of his conversion/brainwashing. I had heard that my father used to beg my grandmother to join the church and get baptized, to which her response was al
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Great story Amyjo! I only remember one particular FHE. No fun activities. It was the mid 80's, and our pre-bishopric father would sit us down for yet another torturous meeting where he read dryly from the BoM, while my older sister literally held my wrists down tight against my lap with her lacquered talons. My father sat us down and told us that it was a possibility that he could be called b
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The mirror practice has it's roots in most occultism, witchcraft, alchemical practices, etc. Considering the roots of the church, this is a no brainer. The "Chamber of Reflection" is a common masonic rite among some orders.
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Just turned 33...
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Try Jung's Man and His Symbols. I find it to be a thorough guide to symbols and their meanings throughout history. Also, I second the tarot notion. Simply studying the OG original tarots, such as the tarot of Marseille, will give you a basic understanding of how to interpret symbols for your own personal understanding. Jodorowsky has published a restored version of this tarot with a book that
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I had a close call on Munra Point a few years ago myself. It was a harrowing hike, but breathtaking nonetheless.It was the pinnacle moment that made me stop laughing at the 'always tell someone where you are going when you hike alone' rule, and realize that the 'me against the world attitude' needed to stop... I have been terrified of heights ever since. My heart goes out to the family
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"If you want to be an ugly fat feminist girl who has a toxic personality, Satan is happy to support you" Thank the gods for that.
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My parents are Red Gulls. *insert screams here* If you think he's scary AF, check out the femme version "Nordic Sunrise". There's a link to her page on his. If you scroll far enough you'll see her moaning about her posts being pulled off a popular online bulletin board for being hate speech.
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1983
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Am I reading words here, or is this just straight sh*t splattering onto my face right now? Is this real life? Is this guy for real? This partially explains why my tbm parents had become so deranged pre (thing we cannot discuss here) I certainly can't discuss it with them either. This is why every lecture with them lately has seriously been about Satan and his involvement in (that thing ag
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SubRosa is amazing. I recommend for anyone who is a survivor of tscc who also enjoys intelligent metal music to listen. Catharsis at it's most sublime. I had never heard anything so painful and yet so familiar when I heard this album for the first time. I cannot post the link, but you can find a very good interview with the singer on Vice's Noisey column.
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That moment was around 6 years old, when I was told I would never hold the priesthood because I was female. That was shortly after I had been told that the feelings I was having "when I felt the spirit" were different from teachings and "from the devil" My inner witchy feminist was just brewing apparently, and it really pissed me off. I spent the next few years lamenting wh
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That's exactly what I was hoping to see..... Brilliant..... NIB
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HA! Don't worry, it also comes in English, French, Marshallese, Norwegian, Portuguese, Romanian, Russian, & Spanish. Hopefully that covers your needs.
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Just read about the passing of evangelical comic artist Jack Chick. I've been collecting his comics randomly for years and leaving them pocketed in clothes I take to goodwill for a laugh. What I didn't know until today, is that Jack Chick made a comic centered on Mormons in 84. free to enjoy here: http://www.chick.com/reading/tracts/0061/0061_01.asp
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*raises hand* Practicing bruja here.... Though more of a hedgewitch perhaps, herbs, apothecary, personal ritual through performance, writing, painting, and the like.
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My TBM parents are kind of what I would call white supremacists, no doubt. Just last night I was on the phone with my father and I was telling him about a gig I had recently finished and how the work from that would be displayed in the new Smithsonian African American History museum. He paused and said, "What museum? I repeated myself, and then he asked rather haughtily. "When ar
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Archaic? I see the word "cuckold" at least twice a day on facebook alone. Not to mention constantly on a very popular adult site. It's a common "turn on" within the swinger community. NOT that I am a swinger. I am in a monogamous relationship.
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I made sure my man got it 3 times on Tues. It was his 42nd ;)
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Has anyone else seen that there has been another woman who has come forward about experiencing abuse from the churches Navajo placement program in the 70's? https://www.rt.com/usa/345105-mormon-church-navajo-abuse/
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This yes....and also they ALWAYS assume the quality of my life is terrible because I'm not living my life as they think I should be. My parents can turn anything negative in the quickness of a breath. What a godless old hag I must be, 32, childless, and living in sin with my Latin American sweetheart. I'm happier than I've ever been, and yet that seems to be what upsets them the most. L
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60% of my body is tattooed. I am heavily modified. Looking back at the process now, I realize it was the only thing besides making art I could do to get relief from the pain and sorrow of growing up in an abusive Mormon household. Do I regret some? No. I just wish I had let someone better do them. They are the road map of my life. Everything passes, yet the mark remains.
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I have suffered from ocular migraines and migraines with auras since I was very little. They can get so bad that I will lay in paralysis, hallucinating about visiting other worlds for hours. The next day I have what can only be described as a hangover. I stopped eating gluten when I found out I was a celiac 13 years ago, and since, they nearly never come. The headaches were definitely triggere
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My right to privacy certainly didn't exist as a teen, and well into my 20's. My mother was/is absolutely horrific when it comes to snooping. I was a prolific writer/poet and artist as a kid, but I quickly learned that those things were to be completely unsupported, and in fact, condemned, due to their subject matter. So I squelched my talent after I grew tired of being beaten for writing simple t
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Never believed. Was already asking dangerous "satanic" questions at 5. Was forcefully baptized at 8, and then waterboarded 131 times again at 12. I stopped going to church around 14. Parents sent me to reform school at 15, where I got my ass beat by "real" bad kids. I became emancipated at 16 and never looked back. Told my parents I didn't believe at around 26. They ignored
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