Posted by:
mountainbike
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Date: July 05, 2016 02:37AM
One year ago today I went on a date with a Mormon girl in Utah to see the fireworks for the 4th of July. I wanted to have a real relationship with her, which would have included sex. I wanted it all...an emotional and physical connection. I wanted so desperately to experience all the cosmos could give with a relationship between two people, and I wanted it with her. We ended up having a good relationship from a "we can talk about anything" standpoint. We slowly became more and more physical over the weeks we dated, but never made it to the point of having sex. I wanted to all along, and at times she wanted to as well, but held back. It was very hard for both of us. Fast forward a month or so, and I was laid off from work and decided to move back to NJ for a bit. She fell in love with me. And we continued to fight about having sex. The night I ended our relationship we both were pretty heated. Here is the #1 priority in her mind, and I quote: "He is my Savior, and the only way to the Father is through Him. Nothing will stop me, not even the man I love in New Jersey."
That's hard to swallow folks. It's very hard to accept a denial of reality for something made up (she doesn't know it's really made up yet and still believes). She told me once her faith is her reality. It hurts guys, cuz I was once there too as a Catholic, then started questioning the bigger picture of life and left the church to live being true to myself with what was given to me (I.e. I have a sex drive like everyone else and I'm not waiting to marriage to slam because some old guy is telling me to). These people (Mormons) are literally living to die and the true believers really are robots completely wrapped around the fingers of those old dudes in SLC. And it breaks my heart. So much about TSCC is ass-backwards. You don't marry someone to then fall in love with them because you didn't cuddle with each other when you were dating. NO. You marry someone because you love them and have built a bond between the two of you that only you two can understand and it makes you both feel complete and so happy. I have nostalgia tonight. It'll pass. Thank for all for being there. At least in not totally alone. Goodnight.