I wish I could have seen though the facade, you are not a loser simply for that. I didn't see through it as quickly as you did. Also I was a convert so when I left I wasn't disappointing parents.
YOU ARE VERY BRAVE.
Like others have said, look into a community college and see if you can take a class there. And, like you said, go get a job. I think supermarkets are almost ALWAYS hiring.
Forum:
Recovery Board