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I don't know how to forgive my self for that...
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The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable man. George Bernard Shaw, Man and Superman (1903) "Maxims for Revolutionists" Irish dramatist & socialist (1856 - 1950) Rock On OUT LOUD, lil' Pastafarian!
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"Self-departure" is a term new to me. Not that it lessens the pain, but does give a different perspective...perhaps a reframing...fwiw (((hugs)))
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The Royal Couple who played Adam & Eve in the then-new 1990 film visited our temple one day when I was 'working' there...they might've been the f-ing Beatles, the way the elderly ladies mobbed them. Poor kids looked shell-shocked & fellow t-worker pushed me toward them, 'Go on! Meet them! You know you want to!' Yikes! I had all the rituals memorized & *still* learned nothing at the
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I remember the temple ladies, of whom I was the youngest, comment on how much happier patrons looked coming into the celestial room. No shit, Sherlock. Now we could pretend that the self-slashings were not what they were. And, the new film was SO much nicer than the outdated plastic garden of theold films.ld
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I stand with you as a former Stepford Wif, disempowered to the point of invisibility in my own life. I resonate completely with your transformation piece, as I am feeling the need...rather, The Universe is *kicking my ass*...to be visible & engaged in MY life. I *hate* what mormonism did to me, my family, others, their families, etc...and I am not a hater. I am taking that passion/energy
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...that extra tlc right now, from you to her (woo her!), with no expectation of sexual anything will impact your relationship positively in The Big Picture. She may not feel sexual at all right now-show her that you value her and are in awe of her Goddessness regardless of sexual activity. LOOK AT WHAT SHE IS DOING! She is growing human life! And it's a scary, beautiful, emotional rollercoa
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Haha, squeebee! When my dr. gave me that self-assessment, I thought, 'yup, they're *clearly* missing the issue!' Is giving me a *piece of paper* to BRING BACK really going to work? Bwaaa-h-haaaaaaaaa! ...and if it does, by some miracle, come back, it's crumpled & coffee-stained & partially filled out!
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I wonder if a primary relationship is respectful to me...it feels *not* at times, again, a pattern? Or my skewed perspective is in the way? How can I tell... when it's always been this way? How can I experience it when I'm not sure i'd recognize it? I want to feel respected in the ways that feel good for me, but it seems too much to ask another person to change behaviors to fit *my* definition of
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I deeply value rfm as a source of wisdom & perspective (and humor!), especially given our shared backgrounds & diverse ones...thank you. I recently learned-here- of HSP & am processing that as well. I really am trying to understand the respect issue. )???
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Yeah, it's none of my business what others think of me & am becoming increasingly self-aware...& noticing patterns that are uncomfortable, but perception is everything? Denial of feeling disrespected for so long? I was Molly for a good three decades, educated SAHM (no career), left The Construct less than 10 years ago, lost what little identity I had, building my life from. Ground zero i
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I have been marginalized for so long that I think my definition of respect is quite muddy...I'm not sure I know what it feels like to be respected. At the risk of sounding like a classic comedian, I don't get it from my children, from their father, tscc, parents, etc... Which makes me the common denominator... First, respect myself, right? What *does* that mean? In my attempts to change the d
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...was a voice I imagined to be my estranged gay exmo brother's. My heart has another gaping hole. Peace to you, Brother. <3
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It is going to continue to be a lifelong challenge/pursuit/struggle for me to untangle the mind-fuckery that is mo(r)monism. My hope is to find Joy in the journey.
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The oh-so-spayshul temple! There the Mysteries of God will be revealed unto you...the closest place on earth to heaven... WAITAGODDAMNMINNIT! Pantomiming my own throat-chest-abdomen slashing??? WHATTHEMINDFUCKERY???
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Thanks, spwdone for encouragement & all others who shared. I'm so impatient! I want to be DONE with tscc's BS; it sems to require constant awarenwess & vigilance! It does help to not be 'the only one,' though that sounds suspiciously like 'Misery loves company' lol...
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...trying to assimilate my mid-thirties juvenile self into normal adult society...and, at mid-life with all the adult responsibilities suddenly thrust upon me rather than learning organically is sometimes just too much.stupid cult. It's quite like having the rug ripped out from under my feet. And I judge myself harshly for not knowing things I 'should' know as an adult. Any suggestions? I feel l
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