Dyna, Bountiful temple March 2007 I really liked my name and felt so special, I thought it was just for me. When I found out everyone gets the same name on a given day, I was so let down. I think that may have been the first crack in the shelf.
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Thx :)
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The missionaries in our area were allowed to bring their instruments. They stopped by one night, and instead of letting them teach I lead the discussion in learning about their backgrounds, interests, hobbies, etc. When I found out they not only played guitar and piano, but also sang and rapped their own songs, I was all over it. I had them perform for us (we have both a guitar and piano in th
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Hey all, Songwriting is a major outlet for me. Wanted to share the lyrics to a song I'm writing about leaving TSCC. It's going to have a Katy Perry/Demi Levato feel. "My New Reality" What is normal, what is right? I tried to call it love Until I saw the light My walls crumbled, I am free I can live the life that's calling out to me Feel it all around me Let go of t
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Been having a discussion with a TBM,today the individual conceded that they may be wrong about the ban on blacks never being doctrinal!! Was able to link to FAIR to the 1949 statement made by the First Presidency about it being the commandment of The Lord and specifically uses the word doctrine. This person is really well read, yet they missed this one somehow and it seems to have given them som
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Thanks for sharing. I am fascinated by stories like these, and they continue to shape my belief that whatever lies beyond this life is love, and that is all we are meant to do here--love and learn through loving :).
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It's about keeping your kids safe from porn. References two parts of the brain--the thinking half, and the feeling half. The "feeling" half hijacks the "thinking" half to get you addicted to porn. Funny how they can't see how the same is true when one is addicted to a false belief system... http://pornproofkids.com/2014/04/14/3-secrets-to-porn-immune-kids/
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I am so sorry for what you are going through. I can't imagine my husband treating me that way, and if he did, I would've been divorced a long time ago. What do you gain from this relationship? It sounds very abusive and unhealthy. You deserve to be treated with respect. A marriage is a partnership. His contribution doesn't end with an 8-5 day job. It's time for a serious discussion about
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I have been reading a lot about NDEs, one individuals experience in particular was fascinating, and they related coming upon ACIM after they had their NDE, and found that it complimented their new view of the afterlife.
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Thanks Tao, things to think about. Funny, I actually have some copied "Power of Now" cds someone gave me while I was TBM. I remember trying to listen to the first disk once, it was a little too "abstract" for me at the time--too far outside the box TSCC had me in! I will have to dig them out of hiding--glad I held onto them now!
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I have just started ACIM. I have never done anything like this before, being a Mormon was as far as I went with spirituality. How are you liking the study? Do you find it helpful? I am tired of feeling bitter, and lost. I can't quite commit myself to Christianity alongside my family because I'm still hurting from the betrayal of religion in general. I don't know what I believe anymore, it su
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As many others have suggested, what you are, or aren't getting in your diet can make a tremendous difference. I have had serious depression for 15 years, both situational and for nonapparent reasons. I've been in and out of suicidal ideation regularly. Hospitalized numerous times. It sucks, I hear you. A few months ago I came across a website that pointed me in the direction of a book, "
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Lolol! Now *that* would be funny to see!
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Thanks, I am learning that the in your face approach doesn't work so well. Tried that with some family members and it turned into a nightmare! There's a lot of things I would have done differently if I could go back to my decision to out myself. I hope your wife will come around eventually.
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Just added my comment: You replied to Colby that you would want to know if the church were not true, and I commend you for being honest with yourself on this point.  You then said that you would know if it wasn't true based on a personal witness of the spirit, the same way you concluded the BOM is true.  Do you really think this is a reasonable approach, given that so many individuals base
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Yes, I have these same feelings. It would be heresy to say that to them. I could just envision the looks on their faces.
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Thanks blueorchid, I was usually picked last in earthly sports, so maybe I'll have it better in the afterlife. Lol
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I don't know...there is a kind of security in having eternity all figured out. The possibility that this could be taken away from them is what causes the fear. And I'll admit, it's kind of depressing not having that assurance anymore. :/
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I hope something comes of it too. But I worry that these kind of members will only become more deeply entrenched, because they refuse to see it as anything but persecution --proof, that it must be Satan behind it all. Sigh.
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The claws, or cries, come out at the very mention of anything critical of the church. It's like I want to scream, "don't you remember? The people are NOT The church. Stop acting like I am attacking YOU."
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That's exactly what it is. I believe they know at their core that it is wrong, but they can't be honest with themselves. :/
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Recently I had a discussion with a group of friends about the fraud case, and no matter how many times I tried to present the uncomfortable truth that the church IS hiding information and it IS wrong, no one wanted to touch it with a ten foot pole. I recently disclosed leaving the church prior to having this conversation, so the discussion kept centering around how sad they were our family had
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Thanks :)
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A couple of dumbfounded replies ...can't understand why I would leave, want to know what made me question...apparently the first half of my post escaped them once they got to the part about me (gasp!) leaving the church. I have lots and lots of TBM friends friends across several states that will likely be shocked by this, but it will be interesting to see how many actually reply. Of the few th
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