I know. Essay that were just anonymously slipped out there without posting dates or author's names.
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I get the feeling like this is in response to PR, if this is the intention they had all along, then why not say that to begin with? This is obviously information they'd not dared comment on before. I was just fighting with TBM I know on Facebook about it, and he used it to gaslight me, which is to make me feel like the church had never hidden this information before and it was my fault if I did
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http://www.mormonnewsroom.org/article/church-provides-context-gospel-topics-pages?adbid=10152761156447013&adbpl=fb&adbpr=53305042012&cid=social_20141111_35430787 Has anyone seen this yet? What you make of it?
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No, it actually comes right out of the book of revelation in the bible. Revelation chapter 11.
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He was tested remember? He said he didn't want to be a womanizer, but the Lord's angel was gonna slay him with a sword. If you've ever seen a BYU girl swoon over an RM, you get the idea of how easy it would have been for him to get 33 wives.
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This is a sensitive topic. My 12 year old interview with Bishop was traumatic. He asked me the usual questions. I didn't even know what masturbation was. After he explained it to me, I immediately denied it. I hadn't even talked to my own parents about it. I got the impression that this was something to be kept secret, and spent the rest of my teenage years feeling like a liar, full of shame
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I've always been a little more in-the-know, what with my parents being so faithful and always holding high ward or stake callings. My father was ordained into the stake presidency, and 6 months or so later, Elder Hales of the 12 came to our humble stake. Before the stake conference started, he took the stake presidency's families, plus a few others, into the high council room for some Q&
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The tricky part about my parents is that our relationship is actually great. They respect me and I respect them. A major part of testimony came from my dad. I don't want to hurt them, but I know I have to ask myself how long I can wait on others until I'm true to myself. Part of the reason I was so depressed growing up is that my parents seemed so good and I so unworthy of them. Perhaps I'm still
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I never gave much thought to it, but there is a mormon aristocracy, isn't there? The in-group from whom only is pooled the GAs.
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Exactly like an arranged marriage, come to think of it. I remember thinking as a boy that my whole life was planned before me and I didn't really have a choice unless I wanted to follow satan and disobey God. I think that thought alone killed ambition to become anything important. I became a good scriptorian and part of my BYU delusion was to learn some scripture related field and work in the chu
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It's good to meet kindred spirits.
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I'm convinced there's not as much wrong with me as I thought. A lot of it was because I gobbled up every rule and doctrine I ever heard about the fall and all the ways I was hurting Jesus every time I sinned. I know at least as much as that I'm "anxiety-prone." But those are the words of the Byui counselor. So I guess I have no idea what an actual proffetional's opinion would be. I get
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My first personal article of faith is that I have the right to the feelings of self security that are essential to self-esteem. That was a breakthrough for me when I said that to myself and finally believed it. Thank you for just being here as an online presence. Heaven knows I haven't felt this welcome is a great while.
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I've seen professional counselors, but they were all LDS. I was on medication for a while. At one point in time, I was a danger to myself, but that was shortly after my return home from my mission. It was a tough transition plus all my anxieties and worthiness issues came to a head, butting against the doubts for the church that had been accumulating since my teenage years and on through my
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Ya. That's the pickle I'm in. My reasoning for wanting to stay at BYUI long enough to finish my degree is that my parents are paying for my education and they don't even know about my real feelings yet. This is a very recent development, the atheism thing, even though I've been struggling with mental illness for as long as I can remember, and if not directly caused by my Mormonism, it's always
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I'm new to this website. I'm about 4 months since I started being honest with myself about my doubts and openly began researching my faith. I'm attending BYUI; everyone I know or could meet is Mormon. I'm a life-long member, served a mission in the Mid-West stateside, and have been trying to overcome serious depression and social anxiety every since I returned home. The first real peace I've
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n/t
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I think the essays were just kind of slid out there under the radar and anonymously so that the only people that knew about them were the ones looking for them specifically. To those with questions, the church damned itself with its silence. Now there's at least something, but now it has the potential to introduce chapel mormons to things they never heard of before.
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very nice.
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