What an honest, human, eyes-wide-open young person you were. (And still are it appears).
Your journal entries sum up for me what I think every missionary must go through, but they are not allowed to express it in any way at all. If that is how you are feeling it comes from satan, shun it.
So glad you are out. (And that I read this after admin had tidied up so I didn't encounter the venom
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