Well put Anagrammy. Honesty and love. I will keep giving it to her. And to ihearyou, I had not thought about it being fear on her part. That helps.
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great advice. Thanks. I saw myself as telling the bishop I do not believe, and then give all the reasons for it. You are right, I do not owe him any explanation at all. But one of the big issues is I have a HT family (single woman) that asks for blessings constantly, so I have to get released from that as well. That is when I thought I would be explaining myself. But if he asks, I have
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She thinks that the mainstreaming going on in the church is to make people fall away so only the hardcore will remain. Which makes no sense since the church is mainstreaming as fast as they possibly can to try and retain members.
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My birth mother thinks luciferians are now running the church, although she still believes. Go figure.
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Our communication is getting better all the time. Undoing 20 years of passive aggresive programming and behavior does not happen overnight. I am looking forward to the next phase of my exodus, and the honesty that comes with it. I am just frustrated that she is digging in now for the sake of digging in. She has read her scriptures more in the past 6 months than she has since we have gotte
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After slowly escalating over the past 3 days. Wifey "I am not changing my mind. I have devoted my entire life to making sure that you and the kids are with me forever, it is my whole reason for existence." Me: "But Joseph Smith was a liar, you even agree that the Book of Abraham should not be scripture." Wifey: "Well you are a liar too." Me: "I do n
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love this post.
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I know exactly where you are coming from. My wife knows of my disbelief but will not look at why. She has asked me to go to church to "keep up appearances" but this is leading to me performing blessings, ordaining, and doing other things that I just do not believe in anymore, although I think it is hilarious how "spiritual and helpful" all my blessing have been. I have told
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I will never forget "Lucy". I read it at age 15. Made me think. The first time I put something on the cog dis shelf.
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Oh, I was thinking of it as a name only Mormon. i.e. This is my tribe and where I am comfortable. No cog dis. This should be below.
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When I see people agree with me and start nodding their heads it brings me joy. I know several people who feel better about there doubt because I am open about things and question culture constantly. Maybe I am helping someone else to have the courage to peek out from underneath the sack. I know I will eventually have to go for good... But for now, it is enough.
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Not regularly, but I do enjoy it and have my license. I live in the 'Boro and come down there two times a month or more
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I Am a future exmo more than likely. I ajustad not in denial about it.
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I am a NOM. I have fun with it. Today at church my home teacher who knows my beliefs said it was good to see me with my garments on.(my shirt was unbuttoned to a couple of buttons, never wear a tie). I told him nothing else was clean. I do get frustrated, but when I do I just bring up some wildly controversial topic to make everyone uncomfortable.
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Give yourself a better name. Calling yourself a traitor is a negative connotation. They are the bad guys not you. It should be Mormon Freedom Fighter or some such. Only the loser gets called a traitor and you are winning!!
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You still have not done enough. Feel guilt.
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Thank you. I like to pretend I am an enlightened being;)
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Eric when you are in Chattanooga, let me know. I travel there regularly and would love to shake your hand, buy you a cup of whatever you drink, and tell you thank you.
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Loved it
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Another thread inspired me to start this one. My wife is in RS presidency and I am going to get her to try and do the Mrs. Butterworth, just so I can watch the eye rolls. That is hilarious. So on to the survey: What is the most ridiculous thing you were ever asked to do as a TBM? While not that riduculous I recently was an auctioneer for a RS activity where they had points to spend b
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Listening to the mIssion pres. Tell a faith promoting story, complete with tears, followed by instruction on how to be a better member missionaries; pray, be a good example, we are on the middle of a mlemon moment. Gag. "and to those naysayers pattern your lives after Christ. I just threw up in my mouth a little.
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I used to have sex in the chapel, a lot. My dad always had keys to the church so I always had someplace to go.
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So I let my home teacher come over because I like him. He is a great, humble guy and I consider him a friend. He was the first person I went to when I decided that I counldn't do it anymore, so he knows my feelings. We BS'd for a while and then he gave his "lesson" on service, told anecdotes about how he never feels like he is doing enough, and my wife agreed, said we could always
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After being in and out of the faith my whole life, I finally took the bag off my head (that analogy is somewhere on this site)...also refers to me seeing my wife able to leave at some point.
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I was thinking the same thing today. For those in the Morridor it is hard to explain the fear and disdain the bible belt has of mormons. They are nice and social, and will still be your friend, but don't put one in charge, that's against Jesus, and you can't go against Jesus.
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Yes and no. I have left more than once
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n/t
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This is my last post because I do not want to hijack the thread. Badgirl. You are still calling me an alcoholic. Alcoholism is a serious disease that is a chemical dependency. I drink. Huge difference.
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six. Three to hold a presidency meeting and pray about who to call to "bulb changer", one to organize the activity where the bulb will be changed, one to make a casserole for the activity, and one to change the bulb.
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um...no. I go for months without drinking. I have no need for it. Sometimes I enjoy the buzz but mostly it is social. But using alcohol most of my life has made it so more alcohol is needed to affect my cognitive and motor skills. It really pisses me off that people make the assumption if you use, you abuse.
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